Remember
June 9, 2011
it was fast. it was just 7 days ago that she could still laugh. it was hard to let go but we have to.
i cried, i wept, so many 'i should have's.
i was there at the hospital when she was stroked. i didn't help it but cry seeing her in that condition. very brutal. can't speak, cause every time i tried to open my mouth, my emotions explodes. and i didn't want her to know i was crying. i had to be strong for her. i just held her hands. but not too long, i was shaking.
i saw with my very eyes, she was fighting for a right to life. she tried opening her eyes, and making a little sound. and that was the last time i saw her breathe.
i still can't believe. i will go to their home without her. that would be odd.
i will remember all the heroic things she has done to me. all the memories will live in me forever. her laugh, her anger, her hugs and kisses. this makes me tear up!
i won't make this long. a blog doesn't have to be long to be expressive.
i have to deal with the reality of this cruel life.
goodbye lola!! have a happy trip!!
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Article# 4
Tattoo
April 14, 2011
it all began when i was in high school, the time i engraved my personality on my forehead.
i never thought it would be this hard.
another sentiment...
it is natural for me not to speak if not asked to. but i guess this is not healthy. i stored gallons of saliva for years! just don't know where to use them?
i have focused on the objectives of life rather than on the subjectives. my bad, i admit. a fault that i will carry for quite some time.
i have lots of friends. but i want more. the reason why i'm not expressive is because of a very personal thing only my closest friends know.
no one wants to be discriminated. this is the main reason.
i just found out that i am not what i thought i am for them. disappointing, sad, hurtful. i admit i almost teared but i rather not.
i am very thankful and greatful to have friends who stands by me all the time. you know who you are, i love you all. thank you!
i have to pen this down, i have to let this out my chest this instance. i considered them friends, but they did not.
and now, i chose to be silent. i don't know if you guys would be sensitive to realize, or i just don't exist in your world to notice such sentiment.
all i can say for now is "..."
April 14, 2011
it all began when i was in high school, the time i engraved my personality on my forehead.
i never thought it would be this hard.
another sentiment...
it is natural for me not to speak if not asked to. but i guess this is not healthy. i stored gallons of saliva for years! just don't know where to use them?
i have focused on the objectives of life rather than on the subjectives. my bad, i admit. a fault that i will carry for quite some time.
i have lots of friends. but i want more. the reason why i'm not expressive is because of a very personal thing only my closest friends know.
no one wants to be discriminated. this is the main reason.
i just found out that i am not what i thought i am for them. disappointing, sad, hurtful. i admit i almost teared but i rather not.
i am very thankful and greatful to have friends who stands by me all the time. you know who you are, i love you all. thank you!
i have to pen this down, i have to let this out my chest this instance. i considered them friends, but they did not.
and now, i chose to be silent. i don't know if you guys would be sensitive to realize, or i just don't exist in your world to notice such sentiment.
all i can say for now is "..."
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Article# 3
Unexpected
March 29, 2011
it really was that unexpected..
it has been a very long time since i last updated my blog. i have so many words to say which ended up being corrupted. but this group of words are worth jotting down.
here it goes.
i was sitting, watching thunders burst its emotion down on the window of the plane when suddenly i thought of the things we've been through these past days.
just like how i wanted to burst right now as i type these words.
it was very early in the morning three days ago when we departed manila to be a tourist in another town of the philippines.
destination cebu. nice place. cozy, clean, green and romantic?
it was the first time for me to meet most of our companions upon arrival at the said destination. and i was happy to meet more people. additional contacts to be stored in my life's phonebook.
but there is this one person who stood out, not on the first day, but on the third day, the day when i have absorbed a bit of them. and now, i can't help but think, then smile, about that person. and now, i smile.
i never thought i would be this intacted to the place and to the people i was with the past three days.
maybe it is fate that in every trip, one will be knowing someone, even a pinch of them. but this pinch is most likely to be the size of who they are. then you start to estimate where they are to be kept in us.
i caught that person one time about to take my picture candidly. but turned the camera down slowly when i caught that person and just smiled.
it was on our third day there when i heard the song i am listening right now over and over again. don't say goodbye, say goodnight (sang by binoculars). the day we say "ingat sa pag uwi!" with each other. it just did shatter my chest as we departed.
we found this thrill in cebu. physically, emotionally. as a matter of fact, i am tired.
i hope the trip didn't end up so soon. or should i say, it should have ended right when my dreams started. all i can do now is wait for the next trip. to meet more people, or still meet and be closer with that person.
it's hard. excruciating.
March 29, 2011
it really was that unexpected..
it has been a very long time since i last updated my blog. i have so many words to say which ended up being corrupted. but this group of words are worth jotting down.
here it goes.
i was sitting, watching thunders burst its emotion down on the window of the plane when suddenly i thought of the things we've been through these past days.
just like how i wanted to burst right now as i type these words.
it was very early in the morning three days ago when we departed manila to be a tourist in another town of the philippines.
destination cebu. nice place. cozy, clean, green and romantic?
it was the first time for me to meet most of our companions upon arrival at the said destination. and i was happy to meet more people. additional contacts to be stored in my life's phonebook.
but there is this one person who stood out, not on the first day, but on the third day, the day when i have absorbed a bit of them. and now, i can't help but think, then smile, about that person. and now, i smile.
i never thought i would be this intacted to the place and to the people i was with the past three days.
maybe it is fate that in every trip, one will be knowing someone, even a pinch of them. but this pinch is most likely to be the size of who they are. then you start to estimate where they are to be kept in us.
i caught that person one time about to take my picture candidly. but turned the camera down slowly when i caught that person and just smiled.
it was on our third day there when i heard the song i am listening right now over and over again. don't say goodbye, say goodnight (sang by binoculars). the day we say "ingat sa pag uwi!" with each other. it just did shatter my chest as we departed.
we found this thrill in cebu. physically, emotionally. as a matter of fact, i am tired.
i hope the trip didn't end up so soon. or should i say, it should have ended right when my dreams started. all i can do now is wait for the next trip. to meet more people, or still meet and be closer with that person.
it's hard. excruciating.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Article# 2
Exasperation
January 9, 2011
I never imagined my next article would be like this.
here it goes.
who is DIANNE EBINA?
you really don't wanna know her. but you have to.
a customer representative designated, as of this moment, at Sun Cellular SM Bacoor.
i don't have any thing against the said company, but with dianne ebina, i have everything against her.
we have been a client of the said network for 5 years but this is the first time we encountered such thing called DIANNE EBINAISM(pagiging masungit, mataray, mapang-mata, sinungaling). yeah, strong words, but true.
when i first met her, i was calm, peaceful, and a person. i was asking every details about their services and she started raising her voice as if she is irritated. i don't know why she freaked out but I just want to know what i will be paying for if ever i will be availing one of their services. but because of her, i won't be availing any more. so i just let my sister reserve for a service they offer, actually an extension of her plan. it was early december that we have asked for a reservation and she promised to call once service is ready for use. after a month we decided to follow up, but instead, just this morning, we found out that she did not reserve any service for my sister! in short, we were waiting for nothing for a month. isn't that exasperating or what?
we talked to a different customer representative earlier, it's not yet dianne's shift, and alliance starts to rise. i asked for the full name of dianne but all she insists of giving me is the first name only. she changes the topic whenever i ask for the last name. but i did not stop until she gave in. weak. hehe. now that i have known the full name, i said that i will raise her name to the officials of the network. to scare her.
when we left the business office, dianne called us an hour later. we weren't able to answer because we were in the middle of something. instead, she just texted that we, me and my sister, did not understand what she explained to us! now we are the dumb ones. no "ma'am," no "sir," no apologies. we replied, we will be in the business office since we are still at the mall. but when we went to the business office, she wasn't there, she said she was on her lunch break. lunch break at 3pm! nice one. she keeps on insisting that she has reserved for us, but the customer representative we talked to showed us the log book of their reservations. and my sister's name was not even there. she couldn't even answer when she made the reservation she was insisting. or maybe she used an invisible ink to write our reservation. i want that pen though!
i started texting her but she won't give me full details. why is she so afraid to give me details about her if she hasn't done something wrong? hmmm.. fishy.
the following story is interesting.
we got home. my step mom said that dianne ebina called asking for the number of my dad for her to call. a couple of minutes later dianne again called saying that she has talked to my dad about the matter. my sister called dad expecting to collect information to what dianne said. surprisingly, dad said, "no 'dianne' called me!" hmm???
she even told me that she doesn't have office email address. but according to what i have heard from one customer representative, "ano ba yan, bagsak na naman ang email ko". lier? what do you think guys?
you judge, i already judged. and found her guilty.
so guys, this is a WARNING about DIANNE EBINA. before you talk to the customer representative of Sun Cellular, ask first if she is DIANNE EBINA, beware of her, she's seriously dangerous.
January 9, 2011
I never imagined my next article would be like this.
here it goes.
who is DIANNE EBINA?
you really don't wanna know her. but you have to.
a customer representative designated, as of this moment, at Sun Cellular SM Bacoor.
i don't have any thing against the said company, but with dianne ebina, i have everything against her.
we have been a client of the said network for 5 years but this is the first time we encountered such thing called DIANNE EBINAISM(pagiging masungit, mataray, mapang-mata, sinungaling). yeah, strong words, but true.
when i first met her, i was calm, peaceful, and a person. i was asking every details about their services and she started raising her voice as if she is irritated. i don't know why she freaked out but I just want to know what i will be paying for if ever i will be availing one of their services. but because of her, i won't be availing any more. so i just let my sister reserve for a service they offer, actually an extension of her plan. it was early december that we have asked for a reservation and she promised to call once service is ready for use. after a month we decided to follow up, but instead, just this morning, we found out that she did not reserve any service for my sister! in short, we were waiting for nothing for a month. isn't that exasperating or what?
we talked to a different customer representative earlier, it's not yet dianne's shift, and alliance starts to rise. i asked for the full name of dianne but all she insists of giving me is the first name only. she changes the topic whenever i ask for the last name. but i did not stop until she gave in. weak. hehe. now that i have known the full name, i said that i will raise her name to the officials of the network. to scare her.
when we left the business office, dianne called us an hour later. we weren't able to answer because we were in the middle of something. instead, she just texted that we, me and my sister, did not understand what she explained to us! now we are the dumb ones. no "ma'am," no "sir," no apologies. we replied, we will be in the business office since we are still at the mall. but when we went to the business office, she wasn't there, she said she was on her lunch break. lunch break at 3pm! nice one. she keeps on insisting that she has reserved for us, but the customer representative we talked to showed us the log book of their reservations. and my sister's name was not even there. she couldn't even answer when she made the reservation she was insisting. or maybe she used an invisible ink to write our reservation. i want that pen though!
i started texting her but she won't give me full details. why is she so afraid to give me details about her if she hasn't done something wrong? hmmm.. fishy.
the following story is interesting.
we got home. my step mom said that dianne ebina called asking for the number of my dad for her to call. a couple of minutes later dianne again called saying that she has talked to my dad about the matter. my sister called dad expecting to collect information to what dianne said. surprisingly, dad said, "no 'dianne' called me!" hmm???
she even told me that she doesn't have office email address. but according to what i have heard from one customer representative, "ano ba yan, bagsak na naman ang email ko". lier? what do you think guys?
you judge, i already judged. and found her guilty.
so guys, this is a WARNING about DIANNE EBINA. before you talk to the customer representative of Sun Cellular, ask first if she is DIANNE EBINA, beware of her, she's seriously dangerous.
Friday, January 7, 2011
Article# 1
Introduction / Disclaimer
January 8, 2011
my first blog.
excited? nah!
just another space on the net that is MY OWN.
you may criticize but NOT degrade.
this will be the bank of my insights, and YOU DON'T CARE.
aweful comments? create your own blog and do not flaunt it to me, i won't marvel.
awesome comments? keep it to yourselves, it is APPRECIATED.
too strong for an introduction? i say you are just weak.
puzzled like a jigsaw? be used to it.
remember, you are in my space while you read this, BE CAUTIOUS.
I do not read, I write.
January 8, 2011
my first blog.
excited? nah!
just another space on the net that is MY OWN.
you may criticize but NOT degrade.
this will be the bank of my insights, and YOU DON'T CARE.
aweful comments? create your own blog and do not flaunt it to me, i won't marvel.
awesome comments? keep it to yourselves, it is APPRECIATED.
too strong for an introduction? i say you are just weak.
puzzled like a jigsaw? be used to it.
remember, you are in my space while you read this, BE CAUTIOUS.
I do not read, I write.
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