Remember
June 9, 2011
it was fast. it was just 7 days ago that she could still laugh. it was hard to let go but we have to.
i cried, i wept, so many 'i should have's.
i was there at the hospital when she was stroked. i didn't help it but cry seeing her in that condition. very brutal. can't speak, cause every time i tried to open my mouth, my emotions explodes. and i didn't want her to know i was crying. i had to be strong for her. i just held her hands. but not too long, i was shaking.
i saw with my very eyes, she was fighting for a right to life. she tried opening her eyes, and making a little sound. and that was the last time i saw her breathe.
i still can't believe. i will go to their home without her. that would be odd.
i will remember all the heroic things she has done to me. all the memories will live in me forever. her laugh, her anger, her hugs and kisses. this makes me tear up!
i won't make this long. a blog doesn't have to be long to be expressive.
i have to deal with the reality of this cruel life.
goodbye lola!! have a happy trip!!
